“My body and mind had finally given up” – What I Learned From Depression

I remember the day vividly. I walked slowly out onto the blistering noise of Uxbridge Road, dragged myself step by step through Hammersmith and into what I subconsciously expected to be my final day as a LAMDA student.

I was 21 years old, 2 weeks into rehearsals to play Macbeth in a final year

Daniel Crespin
Daniel Crespin. 24 year old actor, writer and musician. Recent LAMDA Graduate. Represented by Nancy Hudson Associates.

“This is a blog I wrote in 2016. Nobody has seen it but me”

Hello! This is a blog/article I wrote in 2016. Nobody has seen it but me. Whilst re-reading it today I thought that it might be useful/helpful to somebody out there who may be experiencing a similar situation. With that in mind, I thought I’d like to share it with the ‘Honest Actors’ blog readers 🙂

Lorna Quinn
Lorna Quinn. Actor. VO. Speech & Drama Teacher. Tentative(!) writer. Great appreciator of this site, blog and podcast.

The Low-Pay Dilemma – a Psychological Perspective

Greetings!

If you will, please imagine the following:

Another unemployed day, another bloody empty day. All this morning has been spent in a low-level malaise as you contemplate the inherent irony of the term ‘jobbing actor’ You have this achingly persistent feeling that life is passing you by while you do…well, this! Not to mention the cash

Anthony English
Actor turned PhD (Moral & Political Psychology). NEET to undergraduate tutor. Feckless youth to funded researcher.
Mental Health, Money|
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[UPDATED] Disability: Jayne’s Turning Point

UPDATE 26/03/2016: Neurosurgeons have suggested Jayne have a neuro stimulator inserted in her occipital nerve, which if successful will reduce the head pain.

Jayne Dickinson
Lover of all things creative. Write to play xxx
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[UPDATED] Disability: Nick’s Turning Point

UPDATE 26/03/2016: Neurosurgeons have suggested Jayne have a neuro stimulator inserted in her occipital nerve, which if successful will reduce the head pain.

Nicholas Waters
Actor. Singer Barman. Barista. Mixologist. Waiter. Teacher. Facilitator. Kitchen Porter. Shop assistant. Office runner. Production runner. Usher. Office boy. Bookseller. Events organiser. Cook. Labourer. Landscape gardener. Maitre D. Box packer. Box unpacker. Backpacker...Alpacca?
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Unrequited Love: Why Does Acting Hate Me?

Unrequited love happened to me when I was 14 and I’d never suffered such unjust agony before. It seemed impossible that the recipient of my infatuation would barely register when I came into the room. The total indifference was made all the more torturous by alarmingly sporadic, very occasional, incredibly minor – glimmers of hope. A smile. A friendly hug. A ‘how are you?’ became the axis upon which my world could spin or stick.

A.N. Actor
Sometimes someone submits a blog and requests that it be published anonymously. This is not *The* Anonymous Actor, just someone who wishes not to be identified.
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Depression and Bullying in the Arts: #timetotalk

#timetotalk

Being honest as a performer is foolhardy, and a rarity at best. I’d even go one further, and say it’s a path to career suicide. I’ve asked Jonathan to remain anonymous for that exact reason, but would nonetheless like to share my experience.

A.N. Actor
Sometimes someone submits a blog and requests that it be published anonymously. This is not *The* Anonymous Actor, just someone who wishes not to be identified.
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Tell The Truth About Mental Health: #Itaffectsme

Dear Fellow Actors, I wanted to tell the truth. And not the truth in a confessional, sit me in a box and say three hail Mary’s kind of way, although a Hail Mary from time to time does help I’ve found, but simply in a let’s talk about this because it’s important kind of way.

Laura Darrall
Selfie+post-it+donation+RT = #itaffectsme Let's get people talking about #mentalillness Spread the word and donate to Mind!
Journal, Mental Health|
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Four difficult little words: “I am an actor”

Too often I don’t feel like an actor.

I can count on both hands the number of acting jobs I’ve had since drama school, and I can count on one hand the number of paid acting jobs I’ve had since then. I’m embarrassed and frustrated by my lack of movement in this profession. In fact, when people ask me what I do, I say that I’m pursuing an acting career; rarely, do I say that I’m an actor because I feel that would imply that I’m a working actor, or at least someone auditioning on a regular basis. If I’m being truly honest, am I even really pursuing an acting career?

Laura Gourdine
Actress/Actor (doesn't matter to me), Singer, tree hugger and lover of smiles. Actor in theory longing to be an actor in practice. Would make a great phone-a-friend when in need of answers for history trivia and random info.

On Leaving Acting… From The Other Side

To the actors who read this, I implore you to adhere to the philosophy of this fine website and have a moment of honesty. How many times have you considered doing ‘that’ in your career? Yes, you know what I’m getting at – THAT! When was the last time you considered, and whisper it if you must, quitting acting? Perhaps you declared your intentions in a moment of frustration after that tampon commercial never materialised. Or maybe it was a slow burn – that niggling feeling that there must be more to life than trawling through The Stage once a week and screaming at your agent. You just know there has been some terrible mix-up at the ‘life factory’ and that you’ve been dealt a lousy hand unbecoming of your talent.

Anthony English
Actor turned PhD (Moral & Political Psychology). NEET to undergraduate tutor. Feckless youth to funded researcher.
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